Memoars

saat ini aku lagi dengerin lagu-nya Deep Water, entah kenapa flashes of a short past memory recalled..

sekitar setahun yang lalu di saat belum kawin, pulang dari tamandayu.. walking on a small park di pertigaan MayJen sungkono, abis dari McDe sambil dengerin lagu ini..

life was such enjoyfull, somehing i had achieved that day, tapi apa aku lupa cuma calming satisfactory feeling aja yang aku ingat..

sesuatu yang mungkin akhir - akhir ini aku jarang rasa-kan.. just being with myself, bukannya something wrong with this life, it's just that i rarely go home felt satisfied with what i did, mungkin bingung juga too many problems that soar up in front of me and unable to help.. and living this life just like yesterday.. if i could use that scary word, 'bored', i would use it, but it would be an excuse for me to give up..

perhaps.. if i can change how i see this world may be that world i life..
in other word.. the same world only different view..

beside...

one lessons from my mom that i learnt, be there and enjoy your life no matter what the world given you..

in the mean time..
let's continue the song from Jamie Cullum, High & Dry

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