some time changes came without a fore warning, it hurts, it scary. some time i just wondered what it felt to lose some one that so dear to you, and when it happen it felt ... it's difficult to describe in human word, multiplied with the feeling of guilt of not having more time with the dearest one. when the moment that she leaves, i felt great lost, fear, missing her. And now, after a while, life goes on, and yet something is hollow within my soul, i have tried to filled it with activity and targets, and yet the hollow get larger and larger. without any other souls presence, some time tears dropped from these eyes, it just felt comforting, to fill that hollow inside. And yet it's not a replacement of her presence, afterwards i just have to face the fact that she is not within my grasp anymore, no more just a number away. And it strike me hard to realize that i don't have her anymore.I Thought another time, another reality, maybe things would be different, and yet it felt ...
