What should I do?

Beberapa bulan ini penyakit lama-ku kambuh, dan vonis dokter kata-nya karena aku stress, hmm... Kalo aku review mungkin iya, tapi ngga boleh lah ngomong gitu, apalagi di pikiran sempat terlintas bahwa aku ini burn out.. semakin menambah keyakinan kalo aku ini ngga worthy.

Mungkin perlu aku akui kalau beberapa tasks yg di berikan ke aku ngga berjalan selancar yang aku harapkan mungkin salah ku yang paling parah adalah terlalu percaya bahwa administrasi bisa di bantu untuk bypass, well biarpun agak naïve tapi itu pelajaran berharga yang harus aku ingat, kadang ngga semua orang mau membantu, bukannya mereka jahat, tapi kadang conflict of interest itu bisa terjadi dan the first thing that need to saved is themselves, sekarang aku jadi agak bingung harus apa, sebab karena 'optimisme'-ku ini hampir semua jadi sedikit kacau.

Well that's one live teaching that needs to be learned, adakala-nya kita perlu negative thinking, and convert it into something positive.

Hey i'm paid to clean up the mess, and even sometime when it came from myself.

First I need to reduce the expectation, starting from me,

And for the others..

Well let's start apologizing then?!

Still can’t believe a great big company such as this have a confusing workflow.. or maybe I’m the one whose complicated??

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